As if I ever would let you celebrate such a special day without some sort of affair. You're just lucky I took mercy on you and decided to not throw a party.
Subaru, while under the influence of the card, probably said some things he truly did feel. Those feelings, while spurred on by hate, held grains of truth that he may not have wanted to deal with or even acknowledge. He has to come to terms with those feelings just as you do.
Give him time. When he is ready to face the emotions the card brought up, he will be ready to speak with you as well.
...but it's not only that. [ He slips onto the seat next to his mother. He closes his eyes as he takes a deep breath.]
It was what I said to him that made him go into a coma. I've told him the truth, and Subaru just...shut down. I couldn't reach him. He refused to wake up.
[ Kamui pauses. He knew his brother will come to terms with what he said. And perhaps even Kamui. Still he never wanted to hurt his brother, and somehow he ended up doing just that.]
But, Kamui... I think you're both wrong. [She offered a gentle smile.] Love is... complicated and takes many forms. You just love Itachi and Subaru in different ways. Subaru is your brother, no one can take that spot from him and Itachi is your lover.
Kamui, I think you are confusing "greater value" with just different types of love. I love my husband with my whole heart, so do I love Small Lady and you the same way. It isn't a matter of "value." A place in someone's heart has no value.
I agree. [ Kamui was trying to say that, but it came out in the wrong way. Or maybe he wanted it to be said in that way.]
I understand that my love for brother, and Itachi are different. And either love can not be measured, but...I wish that consideration had been going through my mind at that moment.
[ Kamui pauses.] I just didn't like the way Subaru was talking to me...especially about Itachi. So maybe I wanted to hurt him...just a little bit. Give him the answer he wanted to hear, but...that wasn't right to do.
Still I don't want to keep apologizing for living my life.
[She stroked his cheek, just gazing at him for a moment.]
No one can hurt us quite as deeply as family. He made you angry, you made him upset. Brother's are supposed to fight. Even, [She tapped his nose.] brothers as close as you two.
But this might be good for the two of you, you've been together so long, even when he was in a coma for three years. You two have been "the two of you" for so long, I think you're only starting to learn how to be "Kamui" and "Subaru."
You know, when I first met you, your main concern was Subaru and getting back to him and now, you're finally thinking about things you want and wish to do. It doesn't mean you've abandoned Subaru, it just means you've grown up to allow others into your life. That isn't a crime to live for the one you love.
[ It was very rare for Subaru and himself to fight, but he suppose it was meant to happen, they couldn't keep on agreeing with each other.
Talking to Serenity did make him feel a lot better about the situation. Even if Serenity loved his unconditionally and would never judge him. It was comforting that he could receive an unbiased opinion.
Itachi stopped by to see me earlier in the week regarding this.
He was worried about you, scared. So he came here. What we discussed isn't all that important, but I have to say, Kamui, I think you picked the perfect person to bestow your heart to in that way.
...[ Kamui's eyes widen slightly. That was....a surprise.
As Serenity explains further, the vampire seems to be thinking hard about something.]
...He was uncertain...and all I could do is think of Subaru. I'm terrible.
[ Even if he promised Itachi to run to him whenever he felt scared or had any doubt..or simply needed him...Kamui couldn't help but notice the error of his ways.]
...Itachi is a incredible person. I don't deserve him, but even so I'm glad he chose me as well.
[ Kamui wanted to give Itachi the love he truly deserved,even if Kamui's love was so intense it would devour the ninja.
The vampire looks down at the care keys in his hand, his lips make a slight smirk.]
...I want to see the look on his face when he sees your birthday gift. Itachi has probably never seen anything like it before.
[ Kamui smiles slightly at the kiss to his cheek.]
...as far as I know...he hasn't ridden in one.
And it really is a nice car. I like how it rides.
I've driven in other worlds...but the car wasn't as perfectly designed as this one. [ There were so many versions of cars out there, but there something quite luxurious about his that beats the rest.] And it's black, so I like it even more.
[ Kamui is already taking out his car keys as they approach the car. Using the remote control on the keychain to unlock the doors, and going to open the passenger door for his mother.
Once she was inside, he closes it and goes to the driver's side. Itching to place his keys in the ignition. The car starts up, and they are driving away from the estate in minutes.]
Even if I didn't know how to drive, I'm sure I could have learned quickly enough.
[ Kamui was driving like a pro, but that didn't mean he didn't have any problems. The vehicle he drove was a lot different from this, but he was able to get the hang of it. Essentially the car his mother brought him and his experience in the other vehicle had a similar method of drive. And maybe Kamui was simply a natural...even if he didn't adhere to every driving rule.
They get to the cafe shortly, and were even able to find parking. They had to find a local lot since parallel parking was still a bit of a challenge.]
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[ Still it wasn't a very happy birthday for him, especially since he wasn't able to reconcile with his brother.]
I don't think I would be able to celebrate without my brother.
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I suppose. He hasn't contacted me...but I have no intention of running to my brother any longer.
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Subaru, while under the influence of the card, probably said some things he truly did feel. Those feelings, while spurred on by hate, held grains of truth that he may not have wanted to deal with or even acknowledge. He has to come to terms with those feelings just as you do.
Give him time. When he is ready to face the emotions the card brought up, he will be ready to speak with you as well.
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It was what I said to him that made him go into a coma. I've told him the truth, and Subaru just...shut down. I couldn't reach him. He refused to wake up.
[ Kamui pauses. He knew his brother will come to terms with what he said. And perhaps even Kamui. Still he never wanted to hurt his brother, and somehow he ended up doing just that.]
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Kamui, I think you are confusing "greater value" with just different types of love. I love my husband with my whole heart, so do I love Small Lady and you the same way. It isn't a matter of "value." A place in someone's heart has no value.
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I understand that my love for brother, and Itachi are different. And either love can not be measured, but...I wish that consideration had been going through my mind at that moment.
[ Kamui pauses.] I just didn't like the way Subaru was talking to me...especially about Itachi. So maybe I wanted to hurt him...just a little bit. Give him the answer he wanted to hear, but...that wasn't right to do.
Still I don't want to keep apologizing for living my life.
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No one can hurt us quite as deeply as family. He made you angry, you made him upset. Brother's are supposed to fight. Even, [She tapped his nose.] brothers as close as you two.
But this might be good for the two of you, you've been together so long, even when he was in a coma for three years. You two have been "the two of you" for so long, I think you're only starting to learn how to be "Kamui" and "Subaru."
You know, when I first met you, your main concern was Subaru and getting back to him and now, you're finally thinking about things you want and wish to do. It doesn't mean you've abandoned Subaru, it just means you've grown up to allow others into your life. That isn't a crime to live for the one you love.
Shall I tell you something?
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Talking to Serenity did make him feel a lot better about the situation. Even if Serenity loved his unconditionally and would never judge him. It was comforting that he could receive an unbiased opinion.
He gives Serenity his full attention.] Go ahead.
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He was worried about you, scared. So he came here. What we discussed isn't all that important, but I have to say, Kamui, I think you picked the perfect person to bestow your heart to in that way.
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As Serenity explains further, the vampire seems to be thinking hard about something.]
...He was uncertain...and all I could do is think of Subaru. I'm terrible.
[ Even if he promised Itachi to run to him whenever he felt scared or had any doubt..or simply needed him...Kamui couldn't help but notice the error of his ways.]
...Itachi is a incredible person. I don't deserve him, but even so I'm glad he chose me as well.
[ Kamui wanted to give Itachi the love he truly deserved,even if Kamui's love was so intense it would devour the ninja.
The vampire looks down at the care keys in his hand, his lips make a slight smirk.]
...I want to see the look on his face when he sees your birthday gift. Itachi has probably never seen anything like it before.
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My goodness. [She chuckled.] The two of you are more perfect for each other than you realize.
I think Itachi can decide for himself what he does and doesn't deserve.
Oh? He's never ridden in a car before? Good thing your mother has excellent taste in vehicles then. [She shifts and kisses his cheek.]
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...as far as I know...he hasn't ridden in one.
And it really is a nice car. I like how it rides.
I've driven in other worlds...but the car wasn't as perfectly designed as this one. [ There were so many versions of cars out there, but there something quite luxurious about his that beats the rest.] And it's black, so I like it even more.
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Come, we can drive to the cafe in it.
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Let's go then.
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Hmm, oh good. I already made a reservation.
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[ Kamui is already taking out his car keys as they approach the car. Using the remote control on the keychain to unlock the doors, and going to open the passenger door for his mother.
Once she was inside, he closes it and goes to the driver's side. Itching to place his keys in the ignition. The car starts up, and they are driving away from the estate in minutes.]
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Once inside she ran a pale finger along the interior. Yes, she did have very good taste.]
You know, it occurs to me I didn't even ask if you had ever driven a car before.
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[ Kamui was driving like a pro, but that didn't mean he didn't have any problems. The vehicle he drove was a lot different from this, but he was able to get the hang of it. Essentially the car his mother brought him and his experience in the other vehicle had a similar method of drive. And maybe Kamui was simply a natural...even if he didn't adhere to every driving rule.
They get to the cafe shortly, and were even able to find parking. They had to find a local lot since parallel parking was still a bit of a challenge.]