No. He would not want me to go into the desert either, especially for his sake.

And I already know that trying to leave here is impossible. But as you said earlier of not wanting to sit around. I can't just stand still and do nothing. I have to do something. I have to try.

I'll acknowledge that you are there for me. But I can't make a 360 change like that. You have to give me time. I've always had to rely on myself. It wouldn't be easy to ask for help.